New Years Resolution

Karen has been out of town for a while so I've had some time to myself to think and reimagine my life and closely examine who I am and what I want to be. So I made up some New Years' Resolutions for myself. I have two.

1. Spend two hours EVERY SINGLE DAY working on my own stuff. No blogs, no internet, no games, no telephone. I'll be shutting off my telephone during these work times. The simple fact is that I need to spend time and energy doing things that matter to me. I'm constantly distracted and diverted by blogs, video games, my telephone, my personal life, etc. etc. I have to buckle down, show some discipline, and actually do some work. On many days, this will consist of walking around my apartment screaming and tearing my hair out. That's okay. The point is that my schedule is very tight and I will only have time for my work if I make it. This time can occur at any point, but must occur between 12:01am and 11:59pm. I encourage others with similar creative output in the last year (ie next to nothing) to do the same.

2. Upbraid myself and call myself a talentless, worthless hack during rewrites. REWRITES AND REVISIONS. I just found an old notebook and decent sections of writing are interrupted or entirely stopped by brief paragraphs about how worthless I am and how I will never be able to write no matter how hard I try. I need to save those feelings for when I'm doing revisions and rewrites, when those emotions are useful and helpful. If my magnum opus is abridged for six pages of "I AM SO FUCKING AWWWWWWWFUUUUULLLLLLLLLLLLL," then my work suffers.

What are your New Years' Resoltions?